The past month has been a trying time for both Greg and I. We have a beautiful marriage and life, but sometimes its not as easy to remember the good when you feel so overwhelmed with the bad or scary things. What I mean by this is that during our quest for the treatment and cause of our infertility I had my blood tested for several different hormone balances. In our first results my prolactin hormone was very high, but the nurse said we shouldn't worry because it could be thrown off by many other factors. The only way to know if my prolactin was irregular was to test again, but we had to wait for a menstrual cycle in order to do so. So we waited, and again had a month of no ovulation. I called the doctor and they gave me some medication to start a cycle so I could have a controlled environment for my blood testing ,free from the elements that could cause skewed results. The results came in and my prolactin had doubled from the last count and the nurse told me that I had a tumor in my pituitary gland which is usually benign, but I had to go in for a MRI to confirm. Crazy enough I was very scared but happy because I thought we had found the cause for our infertility and we were closer to fixing it. After the MRI... nope!! no tumor!! yay.. but tears? why? ...because I felt like I was moving backwards again. Luckily after visiting with my favorite doctor aka my fertility specialist I didn't feel so bad anymore. He put me on medicine and told us that it usually is the fix for infertility when you have high prolactin. The medicine however has all sorts of side effects and that's what we are working on now.
Working at home with no one to talk to being very tired from this medication has been difficult. Especially this past week when our car has been in the shop. However, it is so special to have a best friend to talk to every night. Without my sweet supportive husband Greg I would feel so lost. No one truly understands infertility unless you have been through it. Some people struggle for a little bit and find success and other never find success. Or people like us are in the middle of it struggling to get by each day on this horrible medication and not kill each other in the process. We are as of right now in the middle and stuck. Hopefully there will be some light at the end of this tunnel but as for now it is dark.
This message isn't to say woe is me. It is more to give me an expression of my experiences and my feelings. I am grateful to those friends and family members who have been there to see us through each new struggle. Yes we are still blessed and we love our Savior and Heavenly Father. We are enduring. We appreciate the continued prayers on our behalf and hope that we can continue on with optimism and also faith in the Lord.
